bUrP!!!

Really really really full. We had this farewell gathering thingy at the Airport Restaurant for our SVP. There are approximately 30+ staff attending. Others especially the male staff unable to attend as have to attend the Friday prayer. So mostly are us gals & the non-Muslim male colleagues.

I tried every dishes except for the one that does not look tasty to me which maybe tasty to others. I end up eating mutton when the label mention "daging" which is meant for 'beef". It should have mention "Kambing". Duh! So I was conned!!! Ate a bit then I said to myself "hmm taste like mutton" so ask one other colleague and even the attending waitress but cant seems to confirm. Anyhow, SVP confirm with me that is mutton. Erk!! ate a bit only. The rest I keep aside. Look tasty to me but if it's mutton. FORGET IT!!! Still cant seems to enjoy it like my love one does.

So was the for almost 2 hours, eat like there's no tomorrow. Am not sleepy tho' eventho's I am full. Am quite the opposite. If I'm hungry I will be sleepy but when I'm full I will be awake unless there's nothing to do than I can be sleepy too. What the hell!!

Time to go in a very short while. Have an appointment with my menicurist/pedicurist. Need to make appointment with my hairstylist too. Not that am into a particular style. I just need to trim or cut my hair shorter again. Hair keep on falling but not as much as before.

Oh! My son woke up before 6am for two days in a row already. If he's like this everyday I would love it very much. Very very much so that I dont have to struggle to wake him every morning for his school. FYI, we will be on a day trip to Singapore this weekend. Been wanting to go there for quite sometime so I better go. Have to submit my FOC so I can go for Umrah but I have to ask my sister if she's willing to take care of my son while we are away (almost two weeks). Will ask her later or when I remember :)

The Bluey Monday

Mengantuk mengantuk mengantuk. Kenapa ia mata ani. Cukup jua udah tido kali ah. Nda kan masih jua nda cukup. Must be Monday blues. Again? Alasan tah ganya tu. Ari ani kebanyakan will be in Malay. Campur aduk lah jua tu. Malas kan ikut my auntie ari ani. Luan awal bah. Nada ku mau tu. So ikut laki tah ari ani. Cam biasa lah tu. Anak ku payah kan bangun but at least by 6.30am atu mau jua ia memalakkan matanya atu dengan senyuman yg manis walaupun banarnya ia kan tido masih.

So ari ani tulak awal sket lah laki ku dari biasa. Dlm 7.15 pagi kali kalo ku nda silap kami tulak dari rumah. Since kana turunkan di atas so have to walk down lah kan so that dapat masuk opis. Clock in dalam 8.03 pagi..ok lah tu. Back to work macam biasa. Bubut orang sana sini pasal kan minta information. What else is new. Layan tah saja. Baik di bawa menaip dulu so that ilang mengantuk.

Hopefully kana antat udah tupi kekadai. Karang nda customer jadi. Karang balik kaja mesti tah ku ke kadai. Kan mengambar kain yang baru ku bali di Vietnam. Nda banyak pilihan bah sampai lupa kan membali kain sendiri untuk orang yang kan kawin early next month. Ujung minggu ani pulang ia nikah. Mau kan inda tailor ku ani memotongkan. Antam aja tia tapi kain pun alum ku membali.

Idung masih lagi siruk-siruk tapi ok lah..not so bad. At least kepala ku nda kanyat-kanyat cam last week. Mun nda bah sah tah ku nda kaja lagi. Baik ku berihat. Adeh, mesti ku ingat ni pasal kan mengambar telekung tah jua.

Now orang kami di kadai tinggal 2 orang ganya. Macam-macam saja bah. Nada hormat bah dorang ani kan beranti. Yang membaritau sorang tapi yang nda ada dua. Artinya apakan tu? Dua-dua tah kan beranti tu. Malas tah ku kan mikirkan eh. Pandai-pandai dorang tah tu. Mungkin ada hikmah disebalik ani. Amin amin amin. Bah baik tah adang. Kan 10 minit udah menaip ani sambil membaca balik dan mencek spelling. Biar tia aja mun nda lurus eh.

Eh sebelum ku lupa. Kenapa kah orang Brunei mun udah di luar negeri atu nada tah kan menagurkan sesame sendiri. Adakah takut tani kan minjam usinnya? (my sis punya teory ni) or pasal adang kali species orang Brunei ani cani. Tapi nda jua semualah. Contohnya tah aku ahahahahaha sampai takut ku bah kan menagurkan orang tani ani mun di luar negeri. Baik pulang orang Malaysia and Singapore bah. Penaguran pulang. Senyum lagi tu mun teliat jelama. Ani mun orang kitani bah..nada wah kan senyum atu. Mahal hantap pakah. Jangan tah luan taiming ani deh. Adang-adang jua dilayan peulahan atu. Ciao.

Not a good start

Why do others have to dig into my past? I dont want to reminiscence on it anymore. Leave it behind and built on the present and the future. I dont want to retaliate by asking the same thing. Who am I to judge others and who are others to judge me? I know what I have done in the past and am not proud of it. Maybe only to all the accomplishment that bring me to my current position. Not so great but am proud of it. What give others the right to JUDGE me!!! You think that you are right all the time? Am VERY UPSET!!! and sad at the same time

Damn it!! I might go insane if I have to think about all this. Thus, I need to pour it out here. That's the best choice I can think of at the moment. I cant keep on thinking about this but it keep on passing thru my head. Like touch & go. Now that remind me of my aunt's fishes and her friends.

Anyhow, what am I suppose to do? Turn back the clock. If others cant handle it them just LEAVE ME. I dont know how much I can take this. If there're further questions I think am going to burst inside out. Please STOP it.

Well. If other people sees me now I think they will say there nothing wrong with me since I act as if nothing is happen but HELL!!! they dont know what is boiling inside me at the moment. Not very pretty. Have so many weird things passing thru my head that ask me to do ridiculous things. Need to have positive thinking. If not, I dont know what am going to do next. Might be the unthinkable or could be the thinkable. Who knows. I dont!!

Moody Monday

Why oh Why oh Why!!!!

Didnt attend the meeting after over look the time. Will make it a point to attend the next meeting. Have apologies to the chair person but no acknowledgement yet. Oh man!! never in my life miss a meeting. Was too caught up with other tasks in hand.

Have to wait what my boss will say tommorrow after reading my apology's email. My brain is definitely not functioning very well today as I can think of anything else to type. What is going on???? Not good...not very good at all.

Cant seems to detect my good friend. Is she back from her trip already? Hope everything went well.

Yesterday was a hectic day to me. Woke up nearing to 9am. Woken my love ones. The bigger version done some clearing & cleaning to the bedroom. I at the other hand play game. Help a bit only by wiping the floor (after brunch). Then decided to cook fried noodles, sardines and spicy *sambal* (yummy!). This is more of a brunch to us at its almost 11am. Then around 2ish went to hubby's aunt house then 3ish rush to Lumut to my aunt's place for her blessing ceremony (Haj trip). Wish her & family to return home safely after the trip and *mendapat Haji yg Mabrur*. Amin Amin ya Rabbil Alamin. Rush back home. At this time my boy is still not sleeping. Then around 8ish (pm) went to my huby's aunt place again for late dinner. Grab a bit here & there then almost 10pm when home. My boy sleep by then (Alhamdulilah).

What's in store for me tommorrow? Well, I just have to wait & see. Oh by the way, the supplier for CCTV is fixing my CCTV at the shop today. Yeha! hopefully by this time no more missing cash.

Monday Blues

Let see. Today I had nyonya laksa for breakfast so no lunch for me today. Just like any other working day. DAMN! I have a meeting to attend today. How the hell did I forgot about it. Am doom!

Today Babbling

Am to attend a blessing function today for my auntie Haj journey to Mecca (1st Flight). Will not go out for the 2.5hrs lunch so I can knock off early today at around 3pm to attend the 3-3.30pm function. Have to make a stop later to pass key finder to a friend too. What a busy day. You think? Not really actually.

This morning a colleague try to pass on another clerical job which I decline. Request them to pass me a different task that has more meaning. Furthermore, am paid to do more than a clerical job. Dont think that a right way to do unless I want an easy job with higher pay. Hang on! Isnt that what most people want? I still dont think its right. Thats we call ** Makan Gaji Buta **

Request our workers at the shop to rearrange as per my layout and it seems that the shop look so not welcoming which I dont like. So ask them to rearrange to make it look cozy. Cant have a shop look unwelcoming. Not our shop. It is a must for me to be there to see it myself so I can figure out on how to make it look welcoming. Repeating the word "welcoming" in my last 3 sentances. Am I running out of word? Perhaps.

My dear good friend is flying to Singapore with her parents. Now who can I email to disturb today? None! Maybe my other friends at the other department can be disturbed but am sure they all went out for lunch. Why dont they come and pick me up? Darn! Wait! Am not suppose to go out for lunch. Idiot! Oh well...let me think of what to be done during lunch so that I can run out of the office earlier.

My boy dont want to go to his extra class today (chinese class) but after so much persuasion from myself and my maid he finally relent and have his bath, clothed and ready to go. Its just a hour class and not really a boring class from the look of it (send him once before). Then my aunty decided to pick me up. Piew! At least I dont have to walk in from outside the gate. Alhamdulilah.

This is what happen when am in the mood to write (type). Better stop and start doing something. A break can only be taken a couple of minutes at a time before I go bonker. So am thankful I have this (blog). Tomorrow is Saturday then Sunday take out and finally Monday, start of the week. Not really looking forward to it. Chow to who ever read this.

Back Again

Wow..my last post was on 27th September 2010. Am I correct? I think so too. Anyhow, am on a break...quick one so I better start typing while all this information flowing from my brain and it will so spell check later. hope none appeared. My head is pounding at the moment, top left side of my back (near the shoulder blade) is painful. Need to get a small pillow I guess to have a more comfortable sitting position or ???.

Been doing so much work (clerical level which am not but still doing it) but today not so much to do so I have to figure out something so I have something to do. Thats odd. Whats going on here? Dont know myself. Well, just do what am suppose to do at all cost I guess. Dont ask me what am talking aout as sometime I myself dont know.

At least my boy is recovering after the tantrum he thrown yesterday. I was so tempted to do something but luckily I was already on my way to work (with my aunt). Today he's ready to go to school. He just do what he want which sometime we relent. This cannot go on otherwise he'll grew up to someone we dont want.

Hang on, am thinking of watching movie today but not sure what yet as am not sure what are showing today (after 5pm). Better make a call but I have not even inform my dearest yet so I guess I have to think again to either watch or not. My favourite (one of it) is playing tonite at about 9.05pm. Hope I remember and wont miss it again like last week where I have to watch the rerun (the very next day).

It's almost time to leave the sitting. So better pack up and get ready to sign off. Calo!

** Manage to spell check after posting ',) **